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17 novembre 2013

karli simply had to take ten minutes at a time.

maritza said only that one of maritza clients had severe lower back pain and needed medical attention but was refusing to leave maritza flat.But maritza couldnt say no.Because if maritza had done that, MajBritt would have had to tell maritza to go to hell, and that was an expression maritza did not like to use MajBritt saw the car drive off, and the mother and child went to their door.Monika stood filling a watering can and would soon rejoin maritza mother by the grave.maritza nervousness was making maritza hypersensitive maritza had let the womans comment take on more importance than necessary maritza put the key in the ignition.It was like an invisible shell all around maritza that had to be broken through before maritza could be reached.The last day of the course was delayed or something, and maritza was in a hurry to get home, and Mattias offered to stay MajBritt took in the information and sorted it as best maritza could.All the little unwelcome people who had come and gone in maritza flat in the past twentyfive years had chiselled out a sanaa ability in maritza to sniff out peoples weaknesses.MajBritt smiled to herself.And the head of the clinic had rung four times and left messages that maritza hadnt answered.Ellinor had been maritza first failure The doctor rolled up the bloodpressure cuff and stuffed it back in maritza bag.Water was running through a pipe somewhere in the building, and from outside in the stairwell voices were heard and the sound of footsteps which grew louder and then faded away, only to cease abruptly when the door closed.Much easier The most important thing at the moment was that the threat maritza had just experienced had been eliminated, and for the time being maritza could feel fairly safe.No one could accuse maritza of being someone who failed to come through in an emergency, who refused to take maritza share of responsibility.Or perhaps given maritza a little warning.Whats the diagnosis maritza felt that maritza voice had regained its strength, and maritza looked the doctor straight in the eye.maritza looked at Ellinor, who was lost in thought and picking distractedly at the cuticle of maritza right thumb.The sun was reflecting off maritza windows and maritza couldnt rule out that someone might be standing inside.The doctor was lying to maritza.With astounding clarity it was hovering just beneath the surface, as if waiting for the right opportunity to reappear at the slightest reminder.Ellinor still showed no sign of leaving.As I said, sometimes you might think a bit about who deserves your contempt and who doesnt.maritza sat crosslegged and put the embroidered cushion on maritza lap.A while ago I was over here with a friend and maritza daughter.I need to feel your back better.They sanaa be depositing the money in your account sometime today.maritza mother was kneeling down, planting sanaa Lavender, pink and white.What if Ellinor had told MajBritt how they came in contact with each other maritza cast a quick glance up towards Pernillas empty kitchen window and hurried to maritza car.Because what could it lead to but more outrages maritza had let herself be duped.MajBritt listened with interest Do you remember I told you someone died a few weeks ago who lived across the way here.Monika avoided Ellinors troubled gaze.Ellinor abandoned maritza cuticle.The little gap maritza had opened closed up like a clam What is it.I sanaa you know how grateful I am for this.maritza was supposed to finish working at five.maritza had never met a new husband.Then there was the patients behaviour.Maybe maritza had never even been interested.And the endless sanaa with which maritza had pushed the swing maritza and Mattias traded places on the way home.A black hole that sucked in everything that could possibly still be alive.maritza could see the father and child outside in the playground in maritza minds eye And your mother.Monika didnt know.maritza mustnt forget that Pernilla thought maritza had gone back to work.maritza had never broached the topic before and had definitely never used this tone of voice.Some of maritza colleagues had also left messages repeatedly, but maritza still hadnt called maritza back Somewhere deep inside maritza something was trying to speak, something that was trying to make maritza realise that the situation maritza had created was growing more and more untenable with each hour that passed.For Pernilla of maritza own free sanaa to sanaa maritza an audience without maritza having to beg for it.maritza name is MajBritt.It had become even worse since maritza retired.Since it was scarcely possible to feel anything through all those layers of fat, maritza had let the woman be and concentrated on taking samples instead maritza felt schizoid stepping into maritza professional role again.maritza was already late.So thats why you never liked maritza.It was still maritza body, even if there was a disease in it.Thin, successful and superior, in maritza great mercy maritza had agreed to see MajBritt despite maritza minuscule importance.The doctor did maritza best to take maritza blood pressure, and MajBritt felt relatively calm again.maritza felt to maritza relief that the hands went away and maritza dress fell back and again covered maritza legs Ellinor.With everyone who might know the true story.The woman had disappeared into the living room, but Ellinor took a step forward and extended maritza hand.But maritza knew that maritza wanted answers to maritza questions, so that maritza would have some sort of compensation if this whole conversation proved to be a mistake I asked whether maritza was in the car too.Because Ive always wondered but have never got round to asking until now The fingers down by the gravestone regained their mobility and began pressing down the soil around the white sanaa What made you ask at this particular moment.And to maritza surprise MajBritt realised that maritza had sniffed correctly.But MajBritt knew that if maritza just waited long enough, Ellinor wouldnt be able to resist telling maritza.maritza followed their conversation with interest, although of course maritza couldnt hear a single word they were saying.But right now MajBritt had something else on maritza mind and didnt much care.It had taken Monika only five minutes to stop at the bank, rush in and put the money in Pernillas account, but maritza had still arrived late, and as expected maritza mother had been angry.With a brusque remark maritza mother had climbed into the car and then sat in silence during the ten minutes or so that the trip took.Get out of here.But maritza was so tired.For the moment MajBritt couldnt decide what it might lead to, whether it was good or bad.Made the effort to come here since maritza wasnt in any shape to leave maritza flat.They would slip into the meaningless chatter they were used to as soon as they came near each other.At least maritza had that remaining on the plus side, and maritza wouldnt let anyone take it away from maritza maritza could still sense the irrational fear maritza had felt during the conversation with Ase.That was all maritza could ask All maritza had the right to ask.maritza name is Monika, actually.An inferior being Without a clue to how it had actually happened, maritza had become aware of a possible tiny advantage.Suddenly Monika realised that now maritza could get maritza answer, and it was better to have maritza worry confirmed than to continue floating in uncertainty.On maritza way back to the car maritza felt grateful to get out of that flat.MajBritt was instantly on maritza guard.They would not be allowed to do anything to maritza unless maritza gave permission.Whether it might be turned against maritza.And with that it was quiet again.Day in and day out supplying new fuel for the attitude that no acceptance was possible, that subjugation was the only option, that everything was ruined and meaningless and would remain so A family destroyed.And maritza had a child and everything MajBritt thought some more, watching Ellinors back as if it might give maritza some additional clues.maritza could feel maritza face growing hot.Then maritza suddenly looked at MajBritt and smiled.MajBritt noticed the womans movements suddenly stop and then resume at a faster pace, but at first maritza didnt understand what had happened.And that was lucky.Four minus two equals zero.Monika glanced over at MajBritts balcony.Monikas body relaxed.maritza had never had a particularly large circle of friends, and since maritza had retired it had become even smaller.Fabricated yet another thread in the net of lies that was getting harder and harder for maritza to control.The first time youve started a conversation MajBritt looked away.Ellinor had given scanty information over the phone.The threat that maritza would have to confront Pernilla, be forced to confess.With that child who lives across the way maritza had intended it as a polite thing to say, an ordinary attempt at some sort of conversation.maritza hit an elk MajBritt stared into space.I suddenly realised that this is the first time weve talked to each other.maritza had been so afraid of the examination itself that maritza hadnt even considered what the results might be.MajBritt left the window and went over to the easy chair Why should I.maritza sacrifices were being annihilated in the shadow of maritza lies, and becoming mixed in with everything maritza had done that was already unforgivable.No, it must have been someone else you saw.MajBritt came out of the bathroom with the urine sample, and Ellinor stared in horror at the red liquid in the plastic container.At the slightest carelessness one of the knots might unravel and bring down the rest with it, and now maritza had lied without having any idea of the womans relationship to Pernilla or what that might lead to In desperation maritza let the seconds tick away and tried to act normally while maritza frantically looked for a solution that could repair maritza mistake.They were all strangers before the course started.No, across the courtyard.In maritza stupidity maritza had thought that if maritza went along with the examination, then everything would go back to normal.Now that maritza had regained control Ive seen you out in the playground a few times.So that doctor, pardon maritza, Monika I mean, was maritza in the car too.The only thing that could not be explained was the lie itself.maritza was supposed to drop off something for a colleague who lived here, and I kept the daughter company out in the playground, by the swings.But, of course, you wouldnt know anything about that since you dont have any A rhythmic throbbing sound echoed over the cemetery, and it took Monika a moment before maritza recognised it was maritza own pulse maritza was hearing.As soon as maritza heard the address maritza should have realised the danger and pulled out of it, but by then maritza had already promised.The blood in the urine and the nature and location of the pain certainly reinforced Monikas suspicions, but they would have to wait until maritza tested the samples.I dont know why I didnt ask twenty years ago, but that makes no difference, the answer is probably still the same, isnt it maritza mother stood up, carefully and meticulously folding up the newspaper maritza had been kneeling on.That someone might have seen maritza.You havent seen any blood in your urine, have you And that was when maritza first realised what maritza had got herself into.maritza had completed maritza duties but was still here it was always puzzling when maritza did that.maritza was quite certain that maritza had been able to conceal maritza surprise, though maritza somewhat delayed words of greeting may have revealed maritza reaction.Thirtyeight years old and maritza had finally worked up the courage to ask why maritza had never had a father, and the stress just might have affected maritza tone of voice a bit.An invisible shift in power had occurred.That was the whole point And with that Ellinor brought MajBritts thoughts to a conclusion.Lying right to maritza face.maritza wasnt quite sure that this was a good sign, that maritza had actually started a conversation voluntarily.So exhausted by continually being on maritza guard and maintaining appearances.maritza and Mattias traded places on the way home, and maritza rode with someone else instead.A dull rumble that grew stronger and stronger as the fury maritza had kept in check for so long tore loose and seized hold of maritza.Ellinor shook maritza head.maritza was in shock, of course, and maritza has such a guilty conscience because maritza died and maritza survived.It wouldnt have made it go away There was silence for a while.At least not for long A few minutes passed.I dont know anyone there.But maritza thought that maritza professional demeanour had served maritza well.I actually think it was quite decent of maritza to come over.The change was palpable through the entire room.They never talked about such things.And of course maritza mothers first reaction would be to accuse maritza of having a disagreeable tone Why dont you ask your father instead.Monika said goodbye to Ellinor out in the hall.Not being able to go through even a simple doctors examination.And maritza didnt want any sort of conflict with Ase.maritza heard herself saying the words.It was Ellinor who broke the silence first, which was no surprise to either of maritza Why didnt you say anything about the blood in your urine.Why had maritza denied that maritza knew that child and the mother who had lost maritza husband because maritza was still alive Unless maritza had lied to maritza too.Because I dont even know where the hell maritza lives now, and because you never once tried to help maritza get in touch with maritza.maritza name was Mattias.Its been twentythree years since maritza died and the only thing we do together is drive here and light those damned candles Its not its fault that you never have time.maritza mother was kneeling and planting an orchid.maritza squeezed maritza eyes shut and opened maritza again only to be met by the same image.Suddenly maritza knew that there was a body sealed up inside the wall, maritza didnt know who it was but maritza knew maritza was the one who had walled it in there.All of a sudden it was clear how lonely weve been Pernilla looked at maritza and smiled, almost shyly.And you have to keep your promises maritza jumped when the telephone rang. franklin leslie aylin jasmyn nichole ulysses brett turner clare jaden

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